Author: serenamower

  • Human Experience

    I’m mad. 

    I’m not mad.

    I’m happy. 

    I’m sad.

    I exist. 

    I feel like doing everything. 

    I feel like doing nothing. 

    I am an overworked, 

    under maintained

    machine. 

    I am spewing my guts,

    my gears and bolts,

    the things that make me tick,

    to make room for new things

    because the old ones never stick.

    I am obsessed with more. 

    I am in desperate need of less.

  • Mr. and Mrs. Turcotte

    Miguel and Luisa were lovely people. Mr. and Mrs. Turcotte knew that. They knew how kind Miguel and Luisa had been in caring that they had food. They hadn’t been able to have any children. They had no one to help them make food once the prices rose astronomically in the fast food restaurants and groceries stores.

    Mr. and Mrs. Turcotte didn’t have a lot to give. Mr. Turcotte had to stay home. No one would hire him anywhere, not when he couldn’t see, smell, or hear anything, so he spent his time doing the laundry. It gave him a purpose.

    Mrs. Turcotte was also blind, but worked down the street as a teller at a bank. She greeted every person that came inside and knew everyone from just the sound of their voice. When someone handed her any amount of cash, she knew whether it was going to be short before it was even counted. Intuition, she would say.

    Even though Mrs. Turcotte had this disability, there were still things that needed to be done in her household. Mr. Turcotte was already doing the laundry, and she could handle the cleaning, but how would they eat now, when they couldn’t even buy a frozen meal?

    Miguel and Luisa started selling apricots at a bus stop Mrs. Turcotte walked by every day. The third day Mrs. Turcotte walked by her stomach growled loudly, as if anticipating the smell of the sweet fruit. Miguel asked Mrs. Turcotte if she wanted to try one of the apricots. She tasted the fruit, and by the time there was nothing but a pit, she was licking her fingers clean. Starving, with nothing to offer, Mrs. Turcotte asked what she could give instead of money for more. Luisa mentioned wanting a better way to clean their clothes, especially after being in the fields all day.

    So, Miguel and Luisa, the neighbors from across the street, started to come over for dinner every night to make Mr. and Mrs. Turcotte food. Mrs. Turcotte would go to the bank, and when the laundry basket got full, Mr. Turcotte would do the laundry. He never complained, never even indicated that he could tell that the basket filled up faster. He just kept folding until there was nothing left to fold.

    Miguel and Luisa were lovely people, who created even more lovely children, and the food and voices inside the kitchen grew just as much as the laundry did. Mr. Turcotte still didn’t say a word.

    One day, people showed up to take Miguel and Luisa away. The laundry got lighter again, but Mr. Turcotte didn’t mention a change. The children were making the food now, so he didn’t fret. Their parents were always lovely people. They would be missed.

    After a few weeks, the children had cooked all the food that was left. There parents had never taught them how to grow more for themselves. So, with nothing to offer, the children left.

    The night after Miguel and Luisa’s children disappeared, Mrs. Turcotte hid in the bathroom, crying to herself, while Mr. Turcotte sat at the dinner table and asked, “Where’s the food, dear?”

  • Icarus Flew too Close to the Sea

    I read somewhere that people often forget the full story of the Greek myth of Icarus. For those of you who don’t know, Icarus was the son of an inventor. One day, he asked his father to help him fly, so his father crafted him a pair of wings. His father warned Icarus that if he flew too high, the sun would melt the glue that held the wings together. Most people don’t know that if he flew too low, the spray from the sea would soak his wings, making them unable to fly as well. 

    Most people don’t realize, that when you are given the gift to do something, you have to be willing to fly above the sea, but below the sun, the perfect balance in between, otherwise, you will fall, and keep slugging through water until you take time to dry off and try again.

  • Oxymoronic

    I am an absent presence,

    festering in my comfortable misery,

    feeling alone in a room full of people.

    I am a wise fool,

    full of knowledge and excessive thoughts,

    all of which leads me to further ruin.

    I am a living sacrifice,

    surviving so that others can live happily,

    so that they can believe it’s all okay.

    I am an anxious free-spirit,

    surrounded by endless possibilities,

    silently bearing the weight of the unknown.

    I am a controlled chaos,

    containing my destruction within to spare others,

    leaving behind a path of lies to comfort people.

    I am an open secret.

    My emotions written all over paper,

    but their true meanings are a mystery to even me.